2012

In 2011 ,

many regrets were heard & I pretty muchh screwed up my life .

The year have past by in a downhill .

especiallly the last day of 2011 when I'm supposed to spent it away w/ my bffs yet I wasted it on workk .

Not puttin it effort to try to reach them . & now , I'm backing up from chalet the last min . Can't bear to think how many times I've had to give them empty promises . 

There's so many times I wanted to join them but I can't . Now I'm drifting further away from everyone . I screwed friendships up . Forgive me guys , I've been a bad friend . 

A not so trustable friend anymore 

I've been a bad daughter too . No matter how hard I try , how muchh efforts I've put in to try to please my mum , she's forever angry forever upset forever pissed . I don't know why . She's suffering from depression yet she won't see a doctor . 

I promised to not upset my parents & do well for my O's but I'm pretty sure I failed them . How suck can I be . 

Not forgetting I'm being a bad sister to my bro & sis . 

But hey , I've been giving in like everytime . Still , I failed to treat them right at times .

I've been a bad lover as well . Being bad-tempered now & then . throwing tantrums & not much of giving a damn to the relationship at all . Replying of cold messages .

 Furst time , second time , Third time . 

But I tried my best the third time , it didn't end up well as well . 

Trying to clean the mess I've caused , too late . Rejections - is all I've been giving now . 

To those I've hurt before , I sincerely apologise . 

In 2012 ,
The year gonna be having a bad start .
O level results release is Freakin' next MONDAY 2PM .
nobody's gonna be lookin forward to that day . 
Snap Back to reality , I've to face the fact be it good or bad .
Pray hard this year gonna be goood . I'll be a better person better friend better daughter better siblings .
Pray hard I'll not fall hard . 
In this year , I resolute to not shut people out so much .
Get rid of fake smiles & be happy .




Dad , 

Relax yourself , you're working to hard .

It hurts when you complaint we no longer talk to you muchh . 

But seriously , there's no point of a talk when mum's in this state . 

You refuse to join us to make her a better person . 

& you're too busy working . I have a part to blame too . 

When I'm awake , you're out . When you're back , I'm out or I'll be asleep . 

Everyday routine's go on like this . 

I dosen't seem to understand you good enough .

Mum ,

Free me please .
Stop dragging the whole family into your world . 

You've no idea youe world is full of anger , hatred , complaints , naggings & scoldings . 

All these have been part of your life . I'm tired of having to please you here & there . 

It's not gonna work , as long as you don't change , everything will stay in this way . 

You're simply 24/7 pms-ing . Stop your restrictions , I'm 17 , I need a life . 

The suspension everyday in the air of our house kills everybody's mood . 

You begin the day everyday with your grumpings . What for ? Are we that bad kids ? 

Nahh , I don't think so . You really need to change .

Bro ,

Oh snap it !
Stop being an asshole .
Goodluckk for your results & in search of a perfect gurlfren .

Sis ,

You're getting from good to bad to worse . 

Studyy  hard please , your tution fees are like  a mega bomb .

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