Panphobia

I am afraid to say that I live in fear everyday

I am afraid of lizards/anything reptile-like

I am afraid of who I am

I am afraid of who I'll become

I am afraid that who I am misses who I used to be

I am afraid that my life will go running in opposite directions

I am afraid of my own sanity and morals

I am afraid that I rely on myself too much

I am afraid of people

I am afraid that every one in the world will be against me

I am afraid to die

I am afraid of what karma will do to me

I am afraid that I will be lost

I am afraid of the demons within me

I am afraid that no one will ever trust me

I am afraid that hope and faith will abandon me

I am afraid that one day my soul will be half-empty

I am afraid the weather gets too humid

I am afraid my breaths will start to collapse

I am afraid with what retribution has given me after I die

I am afraid that I'll go to hell

I am afraid of my own reflection and flaws

I am afraid of uncertainty

I am afraid of affection turning its back on me

I am afraid that I can never be happy again

I am afraid that I wish I had never been born

I am afraid that my mind will always be clouded with meaningless thoughts

I am afraid of growing up

I am afraid of losing

I am afraid that I want to leave this world

I am afraid to live

W O R D

Some people seek

Some people wait

Some people hide desires

Some people run into the fire

Some people preach

Some people follow

Some people only forgive

Some people only forget

Some people wear masks

Some people distort reality

Some people stay behind your back

Some people stab you in the heart

Some people are talkers

Some people are saints and believers

Some people are listeners

Some people just want you to burn

Some people stay up and wait

Some people go out and create

Some people redefine scriptures

Some people mourn progression like a global disaster

Some people are sinners and nonbelievers

Some people are willing to sanctify

Some people are a mess

Some people are not willing to rectify

Some people are victimized

Some people are criminals that never speak

Some people have guilt but hold naught of it

Some people got away from punishment

Some people water their ego

Some people raise barriers and create boundaries

Some people put art in Earth

Some people get lost in hazy nights

Some people choose to live

Some people choose to live wisely

Some people choose to live astray

Some people choose to live patiently

Some people choose love over hate

Some people hate to love

Some people spell modesty

Some people derail tracks to their city

Some people often forget

Some people remember the tiniest of details

Some people speak low

Some people stay in their towers

Some people are treated like kings and queens

Some people get a knife to the spleen

Some people are of worth

Some people do not deserve

And …

Some … People …

                                                         -     lil' miss carriage  -

PS just two more days & I'm gonna be free like a bird . 

I smell a lust for freedom