oh wow, hello September.

This is wow . the last time i log in and posted a post is almost 10 months ago.

But hello there, I'm back & this time , decided to be a lil' hardworking and 'renovate' this lil' space .

I kinda ended 2015 on a wrong note with an unhealthy decision i made & so the start of 2016 was one hella ride for me all the way till now , 2016 is almost ending . but i made a promise to myself i need to clear these pile of mess before christmas , before a new year start . it's about time i start on a clean , healthy , brand new chapter of my adulthood.

Throughout this year , people come , people go - drifting in and out of my life , almost like characters in a favourite book . when you finally close the cover , the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book , complete with new characters and new adventures . then you find yourself focusing on the present ones , not the ones from the past . so i deeply appreciate and thankful to those that stayed and helped me out through this tough period . i promise i'll come back even stronger .

thoughts at the wrongest time

past 7 days have been the most struggling period of my life . 

To those who knew & was present in all ways possible to keep me from breaking apart , I can't thank this minute of you guys enough . & to those I thought we're friends that's actually close enough but only to realize it's actually the total opposite , fuckoff . you don't start opening your lips apart & say things you thought it's right your way but the fact is you knew nothing at all but simply acting as if you know everything bout me . It's disgusting and gross . Have it ever cross your mind that I did not gave you answers amidst of the questions you ask most of the time ? it makes me puke to think by my side I've friends like this to even bother answering those questions  . I'll be back shortly xx