OBS 2 Sept - 6 Sept

Tryin' to catch up this space of mine as much as I can with all the late entries

I've draft-saved waiting for me to edit & publish 

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So durin' the term break on Sept , I involved myself with a 5D4N OBS leadership training course I told myself "confirm go" the moment I saw the email 'cause since forever I've been waiting for a chance to !

So both me & Kim signed up ! We were seperated from our groups though but I'm thankful I'm in a group with 16 awesome people !  

We got bonded and started ice-breakers the moment we settled down in our groups @ Punggol Jetty . So much yay for them alr . Oh did I mention we have to report to school @ 7am in the morn' ?! so much of monday blues . Intense horror to find the blue door bein' locked when our bagpack's inside thankfully we found the security guard & the bus didn't left w/o us .

The sequence of events may not be in order but it's somewhere there .

Day 1

Arrived at OBS spore campsite located @ Ubin in ferry with my team(GANDHI) already bonded , bein' all hyped and enthu to start the camp

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All the intro , paper work and stuff .

Then the day is proceed with high elements - god , talk 'bout height

The before and after feel is pretty diff .

The moment we saw what we had to climb me bein' adventurous me was totally excited since it's my virgin time tryin' sth so high in outdoor ! Then when I get my ass up there with my partner (BEIN HANDCUFFED TGT) , pretty much brings everything lvl up quite abit . Imagine the restrict movements while having to climb the wood . 

The gap in btwn them wasn't small toooooo

& obviously everyone passed within the given time ^^v

Day 2

Gosh , while in the midst of  viewing never-fails-to-be-pretty-nature ,

guess what's the price we have to pay for enjoyin' this luxury ?

HIKING WITH >5KG BAGPACKS ON OUR SHOULDERS

+ point for us bein' the lucky batch that get to use brand new bagpacks though .

FYI , the bagpack alone weighs 1+kg itself alr

Practically hiking the entire day with quests needed to be solved within the time we set for ourselves beforehand as well chances cards

(the whole hiking trip is like a Monopoly game) which requires us to randomly switch our bagpacks around the group which suay suay ends up some girls have to carry the guys bagpack .

& usually the guys carry more heavy stuffs so .... the remaining hours after the change was TORTUROUS la please

Original plan was agreed hiking to all the way to Chek Jawa but limitations 

along the way made us agreed to quit that idea

BUT STILL , we didn't quit the idea of seein' beautiful scenery !!

it's like a must when you're in Pulau c'mon

So instead of hikin' further , we hike higher ! Faster but not as easy

& I guess I don't need to exaggerate how perrrfect the view is

The amount of joy we shared when we're the first group to reach was beyond words , nobody gave up though everybody thought of quittin' but NO WAY 'cause #YOLO we're gandhi !

Day 3

After land expedition was sea expedition the next day .

As tough or as much or much more tougher than the land expenditure .

Kayak for straight 6hours sure is another achievement unlock 

Bein' in the leader boat with 2 of my mates def was a challenge

so glad nobody really blame it on us though we make mega mistakes like leading the wrong route which looks like a maze and the map is superrr confusing thus ending up we had to race against time in order not having to carry our overweight kayaks on our back ; kayak against the thunder-storm-ultra-mega-windy-rain which blow us in the opp direction easily ; having teammates with spoilt kayak and the sea won't stop invading in and the kayak's sinking but we're in the middle of nowhere there's nth we can do but to switch ppl around to kayak the spoilt one ;  fightin' against the currents that push us further & further & we can't stop to take a breath 'cause once we do so we're 10 strokes further ; havin' the fear to pee cause I'm afraid I'll drown anytime .

Day 4

We have to built our own rafts cum kayak .

One mega one & two mini ones .

Once again , the weather was against our will which have everybody drained to the point - fill in the words - . & cause our rafts are man-made , def it's not perfect so somehow we were all towed back drained & wet .

* on the last night *

groups crashin' dorms time !

♡♡ GANDHI !! ❤❤

Good quality time spent on the last night with htht .

It's amazing how we were bond enough to leak out our secrets to one another , trusting each other . First impression they had on me was actually " Dao a.k.a hard to get along " HAHAHA

The girls

(Front : Cindy , Gaya , lil' dragon , Gladys , Faith , Naz 

Back : Vivian , Stephane , me , Liz )

The Boys idk why it's so blur T^T

( From Top : KahYong , Nathan , Haikal , Raymond , Shahreal , Joey )

Day 5

Morn' was spent on another set of high element > debrief > lunch >
shop-for-our-obs-shirts > byebye

Finally the last day & mixed feelings were def there . 

Meet Jeff , our trainer .

I have to say he's the strictest trainer among the 4 & we had lesser play time than the rest . He just won't stop emphasizing that we're here for leadership course so it's 50% hands on 50% "lecture" . So 3 of the 4 nights were basically cracking/squeezing of our brain juice .

Many things learnt from him though , thankful for those tips in such a short time .

Oh did I mention we get to attend this OBS course cause we have to lead in this annual Poly forum . & most/everyone of us don't know 'bout that till we arrived on the first day .

These 5 days have been really awesome . Passin' quicker than we thought as usual .

I've met 64 more NYP-ians & made 16 new friends .

Most prob the best camp I've attend yet .

Though I bet we won't really talked much even if there's a wapp group ,

glad that we shared these 5 days of beautiful memories :')

To attend an OBS camp off my must-do-list yo ;')

( Sorry for the lack of photos , the rest are with Faith & she haven't pass me yet )

Life is a sack filled w shit

As I take a step each day towards the ending point of this long journey , the insights towards nature gets clearer . Every step I take , the view to the world gets a lil' bigger . People whom I thought will nvr change , changed - it's ok if it's a lil' but the change is so much , & its bad .. & it really scares me if one day I changed too or maybe I already did or everyone around me that I've regarded as friend , changed & leaves me . How selfishness can engulfed somebody to another person I've never knew . Someday I wish to know the reason why they change . Maybe they don't know either . I don't wish to lose a friend . I tried to believe nobody's perfect and my friend will always be my friend no matter how much they changed . But recently , I start to think I was wrong . I can't stand how one changed to a selfish acting cool wannabe . Why , idk .

Everytime I set foot on ecp , my legs will always bring me for a walk towards the south all the way till nsc came to view . Nostalgia will then swallow me & the less than 200M dist will always feel as if I've walked 1KM . Sailing was always my passion & just when I finally got a chance to sail the waves at 13 , my mum decided to crash this lil' dream bubble in my head . Devastated , I tried all ways and 2 yrs later , I see YOG coming . My mum will never know how it feels to be able to concur the ocean . That's where the only time I feel free , letting the sun kiss my skin , and the wind brushing against them . Those new friends I made from all over the world and memories I've created with them , watching races , speeding in referee boat etc. in nsc will always be remembered . & now I regret so much for not disobeying my mum & continue what I want .. Too late , Indeed .

I start to doubt myself if this position really fits me . Wtvr I say always seem to deem as rubbish/nonsense . I tried my best in bein' serious , sometimes you guys just didn't make that effort to at least believe me . It's ok if the whole world's against me . At least put in some effort to not treat me as invisible , at least . Questions bein' ignored , pressence bein' ignored , suggestions bein' ignored , advise bein' turned down etc etc etc . Hello my friend , I'm just sittin' right beside , I'm online . I really love how I'm bein' ignored right smack in btwn . Feel me sometimes , try puttin' yourself in my shoe & then tryin' to pretend everything's ok when all this shit is happening to me . Damn ,  nobody really cares . 

Silhouette

" Loneliness is underrated " - Tom Hansen 

It's so scary at times when know you have to face the world alone , against all odds .

It's you against the world & the world against you .

Occasionally you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache . You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor , & picks it up . You are the only who wipes those fallen tears . You are the one who feeds , who clothes , who grooms , and you should be proud of that - Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is tryin' to bleed you dry or too busy to notice that it is the strongest thing in the universe . 

That is where you learn to fend & love yourself more than anyone else .

Something we can never have answer to , yet put ourselves through shit to find out .

Where's my world of fantasy ?