Finn's grandparents came to Majula Singapure for a visit .

Bringing along his superr duper cute cousin .

Sadly I've got communication problem withn him ;-(

Some visuals .



Everything's happening so fast . As if a fortnight's event fast-forwarding over a night .

Tell me what to do now 'cause I really 've got no idea .

I ain't your cup of tea , trust me .

Thousands of chances given being turned down now you want them back again .
It's been a good more/less 10months ,
so bloody long that I've forgotten how's it like to be loved .
How a hug feels so cozy , sending warmth throughout my body .
It's been tooo dang long my dear .
I pushed you at the far back of my mind & why did you return now ?
Re-playing the scenes all over again a year back .
I'm not an option for you boy .
You should've been clear when you made the decision back then .
When you really pushed me far away from your world .
When you turned down all the chances when I try to mend things back so badly .

Late night cries Hopes being crushed Promises being broken Heart being shattered .

Tell me how can I ever trust you again . Will a chance really help .. ?
If a chance is given to you , will you make the r/s like how is it in The Notebook ... ?
You can't  , can you . 'cause nobody can .

Maybe you ain't to be blame , I am to be blame . 
I just can't trust myself .
I just have no faith in myself anymore .

I want to be far far far far away .
Far away to forget 'bout the happenings that are happening .
Far away to kill all my emotions dead .
I can't give any promises . I'm not the girl I used to be .

I'm no diff to a biatch . So give up will you ?

I'll only let you suffer .

Made up my choice & finally finished filling up all the 12 choices .

Some courses like impossible I know . 

& mostly made up of SP idk why . 

But I'm really have a major headache choosing courses ,

so well , bomb only .

Back to working life , hopefully I'll get into the course I like .

Don't randomly throw me in to some random course please .

Oh , I've decided to quit the idea of going to MI .

Shall head advice & don't be stubborn . 

I'll most probably die in there anw . Gahh , so yeahh .

Kinda miss schooling days ..

O's

Alright , for those who wonder how I'd fare for O's , I gpot a L1R4 18 & R5 25 .
Not gooood at allll ok . Not a single As -.-
Was thinking it was kinda acceptable , trying to comfort myself .
But after listing down all my dream course , god , I'm wayyyyy lousy .
Feeling like shit after seeing the marks different I have with the COPs .
The least was like 6marks different . Now see ? It aren't good at all :/
Oh well , flunk 2 subjects . As expected , Humans & POS . Gahh .....
Satisfied with a B3 for maths though .
Now where do I go from here ? I've got no idea .
Choosing course for Poly ain't easy at all .
Whyyy . Should I try out for MI ? So many questions So many doubts .
I'm going crazy . I need some advice . Where's all my listening ears ..?

And to those who did not do as well for Os : Pack up those negativity and move on !
Don’t go brooding too much and as the chinese saying goes
“行行出状元“ ( Every career has its own talents ) .
Do your best in the new environment and its a whole new world that you can create (;
Ermmmmmm , actually I'm just tryna convince myself .............
YES I'VE GOT MY OWN TALENT . I DO OKKAYY , I DO .

Anw , congrats to those who did well !

2012

In 2011 ,

many regrets were heard & I pretty muchh screwed up my life .

The year have past by in a downhill .

especiallly the last day of 2011 when I'm supposed to spent it away w/ my bffs yet I wasted it on workk .

Not puttin it effort to try to reach them . & now , I'm backing up from chalet the last min . Can't bear to think how many times I've had to give them empty promises . 

There's so many times I wanted to join them but I can't . Now I'm drifting further away from everyone . I screwed friendships up . Forgive me guys , I've been a bad friend . 

A not so trustable friend anymore 

I've been a bad daughter too . No matter how hard I try , how muchh efforts I've put in to try to please my mum , she's forever angry forever upset forever pissed . I don't know why . She's suffering from depression yet she won't see a doctor . 

I promised to not upset my parents & do well for my O's but I'm pretty sure I failed them . How suck can I be . 

Not forgetting I'm being a bad sister to my bro & sis . 

But hey , I've been giving in like everytime . Still , I failed to treat them right at times .

I've been a bad lover as well . Being bad-tempered now & then . throwing tantrums & not much of giving a damn to the relationship at all . Replying of cold messages .

 Furst time , second time , Third time . 

But I tried my best the third time , it didn't end up well as well . 

Trying to clean the mess I've caused , too late . Rejections - is all I've been giving now . 

To those I've hurt before , I sincerely apologise . 

In 2012 ,
The year gonna be having a bad start .
O level results release is Freakin' next MONDAY 2PM .
nobody's gonna be lookin forward to that day . 
Snap Back to reality , I've to face the fact be it good or bad .
Pray hard this year gonna be goood . I'll be a better person better friend better daughter better siblings .
Pray hard I'll not fall hard . 
In this year , I resolute to not shut people out so much .
Get rid of fake smiles & be happy .




Dad , 

Relax yourself , you're working to hard .

It hurts when you complaint we no longer talk to you muchh . 

But seriously , there's no point of a talk when mum's in this state . 

You refuse to join us to make her a better person . 

& you're too busy working . I have a part to blame too . 

When I'm awake , you're out . When you're back , I'm out or I'll be asleep . 

Everyday routine's go on like this . 

I dosen't seem to understand you good enough .

Mum ,

Free me please .
Stop dragging the whole family into your world . 

You've no idea youe world is full of anger , hatred , complaints , naggings & scoldings . 

All these have been part of your life . I'm tired of having to please you here & there . 

It's not gonna work , as long as you don't change , everything will stay in this way . 

You're simply 24/7 pms-ing . Stop your restrictions , I'm 17 , I need a life . 

The suspension everyday in the air of our house kills everybody's mood . 

You begin the day everyday with your grumpings . What for ? Are we that bad kids ? 

Nahh , I don't think so . You really need to change .

Bro ,

Oh snap it !
Stop being an asshole .
Goodluckk for your results & in search of a perfect gurlfren .

Sis ,

You're getting from good to bad to worse . 

Studyy  hard please , your tution fees are like  a mega bomb .

Score in PSLE