▌▌for a rewind ◄◄

I'm not even sure what should I do or how should I speak to not upset people which in turn upset me like I'm trying to be encouraging or what ? Do I have to go through this ? Come and go you're all the same . You've no idea how staring at someone going online over and over again but the typing.... never appear . I know I don't matter but don't come talking to me but ends up blue ticking all the time la . Give it a try , go . I thought . Just thought . My life could turn for the better somehow . Rough night ahead & all I need rn is a hug . My care bear is all I've got . Always telling others be nice to people but at times I'm so done being nice to people you see .