Youth is priceless

, that includes me .

I fear of death . Constantly thinking if I were to die now , I'll end up in hell for sure .

With ma karma accumulating more & more & m o r e e . .

Emotions have been all time low this whole week . I'll just sat there & let my thoughts run wild .

A L W A Y S

I want to start over a new leaf . Life ain't on the right track for me since the day '12 started . If only I could choose the life I wanna lead & turn the tables around for a better 2012 ahead but so sorreh , I can't . I am counting on fate to do that for me noww . Can anyone understand what I am going through ? I am still alive but I am barely breathing

Nobody bother to ask Nobody bother to try Nobody bother to make an attempt , BUT , they bother to assume . "Aiyah she cannot want lahh" "Aiyah she don't want wann lahh" . Cool . How the society have become to .

Nightmares are constantly bugging ma sleeeep for the past week . I'll just wake up in the mid of the night stare at the wall hear the snores from my sister lay back to bed stare at the ceiling thoughts run wild & let the time fly past till I see dawn & take a short nap before I'm up for another day again .

Day by day .

few days backk when the mail for my AY12 enrollment package arrive . Not something to be happy 'bout at all & their booklets looook so boring . Even the student handbook are filled with W O R D S . So not looking forward to poly life just YET . I really can't imagine myself surviving in a poly I have no likings for it & worse , in a course I have no idea what is it all 'bout , needless to say no interest at all . DIPLOMA IN MULTIMEDIA & INFOCOMM TECHNOLOGY alrightt ..

& , Was really disappointing to hear unappeasing words from The mom 's mouth the min the package came . I mean going to NYP ain't what I want too rightt ? Who says I'm smart ! I never were !! How can I be concentrating when the whole house is full of your screamings at wedk what . Seriouslyy ? when can youu stop ? Kick out of that habbit puh-leasee .

I have the most xceptional mom on this Planet Earth ok .

W H A T E V E R R R R . . my KARMA that I owe her cann .

Finally Finally started filling up all the particulars & stuff for the enrollment . Didn't know enrollment could be soooooo god damm muafan -.-" . Medical examination , X-ray test , FOR WHHHUTT !? Am so getting the concession card on March ! Not sure if the fare is cheaper but I'm pretty sure it's gonna help abit .

Adult's fare a bloody money sucking M O N S T E R R okkayy !

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^ Currently the top on my snack list !

Pay a visit to LearningMedia & Bryan gave it to meee

miss those moments back then during tuition how I'll just bugg Ms oh for it .

It taste really gooood & appetizing !

A MUST BUT SNACKK !!

One thursday morning .

Photograph , gives me something to remember .

Thoughts are running wild on me againn .. Whole body feeels so tired as if it've been functioning for 24/7 (BUT IT REALLY DOES THOUGH) .

I need a hug now

Back from Fatboys dinner with homey pals .

Foooood ain't as great this time .

Craving for some mashed potatoes @ 1:56am so get ma ass downn to the nearest 7-11 shop . Heheheh (; guilty pleasure .

Havin' really bad cough . The kind that itches your throat badly ..................

Some kickin' sessions later on w/ the classmates !

Gooooodnite Earthlings !

Valentine's day

Valentine's day was spent with my lovely #foreveralone dates @ USS .

JUST KIDDINGG . we're alll gonna find our prince charming or princesses soooon .

Heyheyhey check out our #GGC pose ;-)

As usual , day always gone wild with these khakis 'round .

The rides get us crazy & this time 'round I'm game w/ the cylon !!

& the transformer ride is toooo awesome .

Then went to catch 'The Billionaire' @ Northpoint after Jen left .

4 of us simply slept our time away during the 1 hour journey bus ride .

Really touchy true life story . Omg , imagine you're a billionaire at an age of 19 .

Woooooolalallalaallalal $$$$$$$$$

So there goes my valentine's day ;-)

& btw , beeen in love with dream catcher & denimms recently .

BeautifulllllllllllLL

Don't get why are there so many restrictions for a girl & a gut to be in love . Like why can't a chinese be with a malay ? I mean not can't , just that the girl have to change to muslim as well & the girl's family definitely ain't gonna be happy 'bout the idea . Gahh , I'm bullshiting . Just a total random thought ...

" We met , we talked , became friends , became boyfriend /girlfriend , argued , broke up & in the end became strangers again ... " This kind of r/s is really saddening . Be it from one party's view or both . Be it right or wrong . Oh come on , at least on talking terms right ? Bleh . I wonder if I'd made the right decision the right choice . So sometimes we all have to just take a step back and see the whole clear entire picture . I lost the guy I waited for so long . & I gave him up just when I have the chance . The world is tooo smalll . Imagine how I feeel when I hear 'bout your story from the mouth of others & a complete stranger to you . She wants you back . why didn't you just spill out the beans ? Hidding from me just makes me want to sent a slap across your face . & a dead knot towards my feeling for you . For real . Guess I've had enough . If I ever wants you backk again , remember to call it miracle . Those part & pieces of us I'll never forget . Take care alright :-)

XO

A stroll back to Kampung

Been quite a loong hiatus since I last updated this place .

Me myself couldn't really understand why either .

No time ? Hmmmmm

Am workin' everyweek but on easy shifts .

Need a breakk & no idea whyy oh whyy I'm feeling so bloooody tired nowadays despite the hours of sleeeep .

Ok , shall start with CNY .

Went back to Malaysia of course .

nevertheless to say , amount of red packets I received is pathetic but oh well , it's been like this for let say 16years ? Ha ..... & sad to say all are in RM 'cept the one & only one from ma parents :|

Stayed a longer period of time this year 'cause me no schooool leii . HIAKHIAK

CNY back @ my kampung site is alwayss welcomed by this :

Yes readers , FIREWORKS . LOADS OF IT .

Ah gong's neighbours are alll bloody richh they cann actually have mini fireworks competition with all diff kinds & patterns of it , like seriously .

I didn't plan to countdown for CNY at all but these bombs just bomb me up from my slumber at 0120hrs .

There goes my sleep & everyone in the house went to help out in the 拜拜 of 天宫 .

Fooods & kueis & stuff .

One weeek there was boring & boring & boring .

One thing I regret was not visiting my nanny 'cause no one wanted or didn't have time to bring me & I'll just lost my way if I go by myself .

She's been the one changing my diapers & sayang-ing me to sleeep since the day I was born .

Though boring , yet I love it there .

Waking up from the morn call of the rooster , slow pace of life that S'pore never gonna have .

Everyday in S'pore 's like rushing for time & time & time as if time is a monster .

Life there is just tooooo free & easy & beautiful for me .

Ohh p/s there's no explanation to this new url . Just feel like changing to a new one , that's all . Will be backk soooon . Ciao'