Pit-hole of hell

Day 3 of 5 finally halfway there and I swear this is so tiring damn . Trying to get some sleep but it's so diff . The management have everything so unplanned and wasting of time is always happening sigh 😞 oh ya btw we're performing  in a pit which literally can't be seen so I kinda feel sorry for all my friends who's coming down for the show . Ok Ciao 

Flashback zero one three

I'm like 20 days late ..... HEY IM BUSY OK hahahah so I told myself it's a must to finish it today and not to drag any longer esp this whole week gonna be hellavu cray .

2013 started blissfully & peacefully at kmspks with merits gained then I continued after with my bbgs basically I had a good start to 2013 on the dot ☺

Thank you my Charlie Angels for tolerating me and always bein' there for me despite my super busy schedules , guilty for not putting in the extra effort to catch up w you guys . I promised to try dig out more time for y'all this year alright ! Mua Muax ♡♡♡

Then it comes open house

She was my good friend then

But then again , people change , sth caught up & glad we're still friends though

I picked up the skills of guitar I was so excited about but dreams were crashed soonafter

My first presentation

Catched up with the taiwan mates missin' those good times still ;')

Feb

Virgin performance @ USS > losing some of my close friends that I used to treasure quite abit

Hahahahh miss you tay ! Those times that we talked rubbish all day & joke around

Trying pretty hard to remember where I had left the polaroids . Thanks for being the listening ears to all my rants before we started to drift apart .

March

April

Sending the Charlie Angels off to BKK

#nationalsiblingsday

谢谢ni men for staying by my side . Sis , I've seen you grown pretty much throughout these months , learning how to keep your mouth shut when there's a need to and now finally you're Sec 1 . Kudos to that .

Probly the only day I returned home early & managed to captured such a beautiful sunset

May

Jes sweet 17th bbq party ! Surprise success yay ! 

June

Thank You Ah Li for the 6yrs going 7yrs of friendship

Appreciate all the HTHTs though we hardly talked now but know that I'm always there for ya alright , my crazy partner ! ;') 

Glad I managed to catch up w my lowersec clique girls

We agreed to each other we're gonna meet up often and not how we reunited 'cause Ver left us 1.5yrs ago . Miss you dearly Ver ! Hope you're doing fine now ;')  

Father's Day

Thanks daddy for the care and concern showered on me , fetching me to and fro school whenever Finn is not free to fetch me , asking me if I need allowance , telling me to take life easy . Sorry that I've not been a perfect daughter with my pretty much f* up attitude you have to endure . Sorry that I've not made the effort to try starting a convo with you taking faults at you when you didn't stand up for the family but I know you're really tired 'bout the whole family nonsense . Thank you for everything . Love you most .

July

So much love for them

Thanks bro for always supporting me silently . We really need to talk more HAHAHA

The year where I turn 18th finally . It's these snippets of  happy moments that keep me standing 

One of my fav photos

When I'm still able to squeeze out time for meet-ups .

Aug

Thanks for the guidance my gaohu team throughout practice , combine , intensive , performances !!

Jen's sweet 18th , another successful surprise ;')

Sep

Had my first try in OBS where I met a bunch of friends I can trust & rely on . Thankful for the memories and bond we had during this 5D4N !

Oct

(Not in sequence)

Thank you comm , alumnus for the guidance throughout my times as a vp . Not exaggerating when I say this journey was full of bumpy up & downs , it wasn't easy at all esp having to struggle with going home early and school projs . But I glad I pressed on even though halfway through I did have the strong urge to give up . The things I learnt surprise me at how I can help myself in life .

* the only and ugliest photo of us *

Thank You JLS for standing by me and not giving up on me esp when I wanted to give up so badly . I really did feel like a fuckin awkz lightbulb working with both of you at the start but along the way I kinda get used to it haha . Thanks for all the help in the many up-downs , know that I'm greatly appreciated . We are indeed Jia Lat Sia HAHAHHA . Cheers to a few months more !

p.s stop ignoring me HAHAHHA #justsaying

Not forgetting Karen !

Nov

Tessa's 18th surprise at her crib !

Nathan ! Shine the theater during musical alright ! Make everybody madly indulge in your voice !!

Hi my babe with the same name as my sister thus the reason of you being my sister too ^^

Thanks for keeping me sane from this hell school and making poly life much more bearable along with Sian and Dan . Hehe always enjoying when we spill our lil' secrets to each other . Know that I'm always here okzzxcc !! Love you ! Btw , this is by far , my fav photo of us !

Not not not forgetting the bodyguards ! Sorry for not paying attention to class and have y'all do my labs ! Truly grateful , continue the role of my bodyguards alright ^^v

One of the many successful concerts that my sleepless/latenights of hardwork paid off .

Dec

Not gonna say much on dec since my previous post has updates on it .

I'm glad I had a good start and end to this painful year . At least at the outer shell it seems perfect .

2013 was full of shits & most prob the worst year ever . From friendship to family to r/s to school to work problems . All kind of world problems surfaced . I made new friends which I sincerely wish it'll blossom into a true friendships , having too many friends can be a con too . At the end of the day , you'll realize only a minute amount of friends are truthfully true to you . Thus , somehow I hate this over-sociable character of mine at times . I've also cast aside some people whose character simply puts me off because friends do not do those kind of thing . I don't believe in staying with a friend when they don't act like a friend to you . I just don't really plaster a smile all the time and say hello to somebody that disgusts me you know . I start to avoid peoples . Also , more than one tragic happened and I really don't wish to mention it . Things just went downhill in August and went to a stage suicide can actually cross my mind in October . Thank god for all those that's still by my side and not giving up on me , willingly to suffer with me throughout , knowing I'm not right despite all my smiles and laughter . You guys know who you are deep down love y'all much much kay ? Sometimes I just couldn't stand myself for drowning in pain and sorrows , so not not me can .

They say family will always be your pillar of strength but nope , mine didn't . Finn took over them instead . Everytime I look back the past years on the things I have/force to give up , I couldn't help but to hate my mum a lil' more . Idc that makes me sound like an unfilial child or what I'm just voicing out . Guitar , Organ (WORSE having to GIVE it away to some rag-and-bone man) , Sailing , NAFA , DJ classes so much more so much much more . Don't get why she just have to be so simple-minded and ruin my childhood which I treasured so much . MY CHILDHOOD MEMORIES . It's all this hatred thoughts that had me came up with my 2014 resolutions : To have super supportive parents .

Simple as that , god .

Speaking of which , I can't thank god for giving me the best buddy I can ever asked for . Thank you Finn , for bein' by my side 24/7 despite the attitude I throw at you sometimes , giving me good food always , sending me to school blah blah blah . I still love you for your retarded yet cool , annoying yet funny character and how you actually resemblance Gab so much ok . To many more years ahead , xoxo . 

I just wish life moves on with all that is living and may everyone be happy. I've always wished for people to be happy . But it doesn't seem as easy for some . Whatever life throws at you , you gotta move on . Don't live your life just for a particular someone because eventually it will kill you.  Aim to live a fulfilling life and accepting regrets and mistakes , appreciating what you have . Because you never know what happens next . Yes , I can say things like that . But even I can't do all that I've said. We can only try and I sincerely hope for a better 2014

FINALLY ! Not gonna say much anymore , because in a few hours time , I'mm gonna start on the routine for the past few days of 8am-12mn for a week more . Mentally drained . Physically drained . #sadlife

Oh ya , in case I forget to thank anybody , SORREH !