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writing the 17th nowwwwwww . been a habit alrr . shitttta !
daily with0ut fail . thats the 0nly wayy 0ut t0 mug myselff ..
after hearing the st0ry , thinkk im damn dumb . Zzzz
just feel amazing at the split sided 0f y0urs .
just look at the number of comments ive heardd . sadly they have no idea bout
the truthh . Effing get l0st , sucking liar biatch .
just c0unt the number 0f empty pr0mises y0u had gave ,
ooooops , sorry , i f0rg0tten , it c0untless already @.@

having DNT supp class NOW , -.- which ,
practically we are d0ing nthh but munching . HAHA
typical mayflowerians . N0 0ne is giving a damnnn yet t0 O's .
LOL . b0bian lahhh , if 2012 were t0 really end the w0rld ,
what f0r studyyy righttt .. might as well spent the remaining time
n0w enj0ying timee n0ww , LOL ,kidding , im crapping ,
i d0nt wanna die y0unggg .

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I cant be selfish . I have to give up . Or to give in .
This is my life , i had been born , so i had to accept the fate i had been chosen to go .
Life can be miserable , but you still have to live on , cause you are not dead yet .
Or you can just commit suicide , but thats ridiculous , cause you gonna lose
all your love ones , your frens just because of a guy ?
Ha , if only eveyone can choose their path , then i believe everyone
will be happy , no sadness in everyone , no anger could be found in their heart ,
no evil will be found in their blood , no hatred will be found in their eyes ,
no crudness found in their heart .. If only everyone wont die . Living happily ever after .
Ha . Kukukityin , i guess i know why you hated him so much alr , guess its the same reason as mine too ,
come on , lets gang up to solve our problems ! Ha , kidding .
We 做人不能那么自私 , 要面对事实 ... Forgive and forget alright !
Never expect . Never assume . Never ask . And never demand .
Just let it be . If its meant to be , it will happen . It will return back to you .
If you choose to look at me that way , treat me that way , so be it .
Come back to me only if you want to , do not return because you have to .
What are words if you really dont mean them when you say them ?
I gotta be happy . I have to try . Try my best . At least the very least .
Lao tian ye , be with me , stay with me , heal me fast from this sorrow
i've had enough . and be with gabrello , make sure his happy .
做人 , 要开开心心 . You smile , i smile ..

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camp success starts today ! freaking boring lame course .
more like camp suck ass -__- JIANG ZHEN DE
english wksh0p was a total pain-in-the-ass secti0n ,
must thank us that we did n0t fall asleep KAY !( though we did a little ~ :P )
then Hist0ry OUTING , have lessons fr0m 10.30-11.40 furst ..
then set 0ff t0 GERMANY , kidding , t0 see BERLIN WALL

Anw , Raj went f0r camp , s0 mdm shanthi take 0ver ,
al0ng with miss Balan , and it was a bad ch0ice ..
NO food NO snacks NO photo-taking(eventually no one b0ther~)
went t0 Bed0k Reserv0uir t0 see the Berlin Wall fr0m Germany WORHHHH .. Zzzz
went there f0r debate , whats the p0int !??
still g0tta write essays , reflecti0ns , BLAHBLAH .
and have t0 l0ok up this s0ng named "WIND OF CHANGE" by SCORPIONS and fill in wksheet ..
which , i cant find the answers 0n the webbb at all ..

AHHA ! SOME SNAPSHOTS OF WHAT WE HAVE TOOOOOOK AT BERLIN WALL ! :D





















just some random ones , lazyyy upload more . next time bahh ! :)


had a terrible dream t0day early m0rning that i was j0lted up fr0m my sleep ,
it as if its soooo real luhs , like im g0nna get it in real life
and worse 0f the w0rse , the character inv0lved was .. .
haish , 10 days had past ... but the memory is still as fresh ah though it just happened ystd , had written 10 letters , hmmm sh0uld i st0p d0ing this ?
ha , its useless or rather its h0peless . really .
its like i already kn0w it w0nt came true alr ..
yet , it just hadnt fade a tiny bit .
tch . im just so stubb0rn . heh maybe n0t me ,
its my soul thats wayyyyyyyyy t0 stubb0rn ._.
HOW ?
and , i srsly d0nt kn0w what t0 reply alr .
its beeen the xx pers0n asking me in a single day ,
news spread fast huh ? GND man

Today is a supar damn boringggg day ! Garr (-｡-;
Assembly , maths , history , CE ..
Knowww what ?
I NEED mdm parimala to be backkk !
If mr. charles continues to me in thisss wayyy , im sure to fail chem badlyyy ! (¬_¬)
And mr raj just teachhh history by reading fromm th tb then as and when ,
here and there call us to have a breakkk . Zzzzz and its just only a 1 min breakkk
Ha , how i wished i belongs to sec 3s again , getta go to campppp
Last year sec 3 camp was no funnn at all lahhh !
Walaoo , lik a chalettt onlyyy , wasted !
Now what , sec 4 liao , camp success !? -.- lika school day or worse ah ?
Wed come back from history field trip to berlin wall le
still have to stay till 3 for HCL ahhhh ! (−_−＃)
Then thurs workshopppsss
Friday , AWWA , still have to come up with performance .. Techtonic !?
Total sianesss . Is this wad they call sucesss ..? (°_°)
Haish , dont know its good or bad or wad , i need to keep myself busy lahh ,
but not in this kind of way rightt ..? I need some excitement ah!
Hmmmm , wanna catchh diary of a wimpy kid , and i havenn see big momma 2 yettt !

Alamakk ahhhhh , why in heaven must you have a brudder that loooks
soooooooo damn like you , smell so like you as though your pressence was there !? (*_*)
features like you , figure like you , use the same phone as you ,
wear the same shoe as you , same attitude as you , speaks the same way as you ,
and worse ! Sitting righttt beside me in class 5 days a week , monday to friday ,
But , difference is , its justt nott you .... damn , what do you call thiss !?
Urghhh , well , this is maximumm torture man ! (*｀へ´*)

“ Love doesn’t always come dressed in the package we want. It doesn’t arrive on our schedule and it doesn’t follow our guidelines and rules. It is love. It is intangible, unpredictable, and certainly uncontrollable. This is what makes it so wonderful. We need to remember to be grateful and honored by its presence in our lives… Be careful to not let it pass you by just because it doesn’t present itself the way you think it should."

JJ Lin- Sarang hae yo MV (사랑해요)

you have no idea how hard it was . how diff it is . Do you ?
i pretend i d0nt care , but it just makes me miss you more .
obviously you dont . ysihy , cysmmc !??
wtshitt , ha . joke .


to you , sarang hae yo


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Gabrello ! rest in peace , be happy .
i'll miss you . badly . really . love you
naughty y0u , y0u pr0mised y0u w0nt die ahead 0f me , s0 i w0nt have t0 suffer the heart l0ss , y0u br0ke y0ur pr0ise le h0rr !
heh , its 0kkayy .
continue to be there f0r me , t0 cheer me up , t0 be there when i need y0u .
Rmb t0 stay happy f0rever like this ah ! D; MUSTTTT ------------------>
ive sent whatever i have t0 say t0 Aunt Emily & Uncle Richard s0 they cant burnt it t0 y0u 0n my behalf ♥

Hehh , Whyy are there s0 manyyy IFs in 0ur lifes !? If this If that IF only all can c0me truee ..


IF only i c0uld turn back time ,
only t0 find myself afraid that if i d0 s0 , the g0od mem0ries will dissappear ..
IF 0nly i was n0t b0rn , s0 i w0nt have t0 suffer .
IF only i was b0rn earlier
IF 0nly i was b0rn later
IF only i have a time machine , s0 i can rewind time to the g00d times
IF only i can erase everything from my brain , but afraid that
IF i d0 s0 , all the fun awes0me mem0ries will be erase as well
IF only i have the c0urage , t0 pass y0u that letter
IF only i kn0wn y0u earlier
IF 0nly I am a g0o d gurl last time , then mum w0nt be dissap0inte in me .
IF 0nly i had n0t mix the wr0ng fren and d0ne that tat0o
IF 0nly i had studied hard f0r PSLE and g0es t0 a g0od sch0ol ,
but i'll miss the chance 0f getting t0 kn0w the AWESOME frens i kn0w n0w ..
IF 0nly i c0uld stay in TAIWAN , in a t0tal diff surr0undings ,
meeting t0tal new frens , have a T0tal new life
IF 0nly my mum all0wed me t0 c0ntinue w0rking ,
i w0nt have t0 quitt and missing the awesome peeps there
IF 0nly i HAVE a elder sis , one that i can talk t0 everynight ,
share my secrets , to l0ok to , to solve my pr0blems ,
IF only my y0unger sis became my elder 0ne
IF only i stopped daydreaming
IF only i can figure out what im thinkking
IF only my brudder could be m0re sensible ,
IF only i could grow up faster ,
IF only i could go back to 2010
IF only i could be back t0 being a baby , innocent and sweet ,
free 0f worries , waiting f0r ppl t0 care f0r them , l0ved them ..
IF only sweet dreams can turn to reality ,
IF only i had an awesome childhood ,
IF only i had n0t came t0 singap0re ,
then im sure t0 regret i missed out all the awesome ppl i've met .
IF only i c0uld be smarter , n0t w0rrying b0ut studies
IF only my life was PERFECT
IF only i could eat and eat all day , not worrying of getting FAT
IF only im really lik a glutton , angry sad happy w/e also EAT EAT EAT
IF only my mum wont be so strictttt , there many things i c0uld d0 ,
IF 0nly i've n0t met y0u , fall in ♥ with y0u ,
my heart w0nt be aching s0 badly , w0nt be weeping silently ,
i w0nt have t0 pretend t0 put up a fake smile 0n my face ,
i c0uld relly be myself and LOL
IF only i could be a bird , flying in the sky freely !
with no worries at all , roaming ar0und
IF 0nly s0me0ne can tell me what shld i d0 n0w ...
IF 0nly s0me0ne can tell me ami i really that bad ... ?
IF only i can be m0re decisive
IF only i can be m0re evil , and n0t s0 s0ft-hearted
IF only i can be str0nger , i w0nt be in the state i am in n0w
IF 0nly the w0rld is F R E E 0f disasters ,
japan w0nt have earthquakes , aunt will be finee
IF only 11 is really n0t such a bad number ...
IF only i c an have total FREEDOM
IF only i really can be likk no.6 , have special powers
IF only i have a cute partner lik doraemon ,
supplying everything i need anytime
IF only i could make my choices rightt
IF only god could relly stop all disasters from happening ,
then people out there wont have to sufferr
IF only i could live in my own worlddd ..

URGHHHH . i give up lik wtf .
Pekcek Pekcek .
parents making a big fuss , tsk .
it's just my thumb losing its senses lahhh
fine , if it wont hewal tmr , i go see d0ctor ahhh .
and s0rry f0r th0se wh0 get irritated by my sucking tweets this few days .
heh deleted them alr ..
and da-sao , sto0pp askingg what's happening t0 me . haish ,
saw y0ur tweet b0ut y0ur m-t-p dinneer , walao , lik a sweeet 0nly .
envy can , if 0nly i have that chance . LOL , kiddinggg ah .
the l0ss 0f bl0oood can make me die any moment now and yet
I'm still smiling as brightly as ever , lik a inn0cent baby , all pure
its just so c0ntradicting huh !
telling myself
I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling
I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling .. yeah lies .. Zzzzz
Trust me , i know what it's like to lock yourself up in the toilet to cry it all out ,
yeahhh , and it just breaks y0ur heart when
people you know , become people you knew ;
especiallyy when you can walk right past someone as if they were never
a H U G E part of your life
you used to be able to talk f0r h0urs on the phone and
now you cant even look each other in the damn eye man ..
it completely breaks your heart to know good things change and fades ,
faster then you'd imagined andd WORSE , theres nothing that you can do to stop it .

Eeesh g0tta ST0p all dha crapps !
second day of my 0h-so-cca-holiday , same routine ,
wake up , eat , cca , home , eat , hw , sleep .
a busy holiday , all rather hooked-up wan .
sth good , i need the loooong break , numb myself with tuff ,
make myself busy so i wont have time to daydream and think bout stuff again ..
still I never knew it would be this hard to lose someone I never truly had ,
oh well , fine . how long do i need this time r0und ?
it'll be looong . told myself dont ever find love again ,
the price to pay after is too high , i caant take it ...
let love find you , thats why its called falling in love
because you dont force yourself to fall , you just fall
never push your relationship with a person too hard,
if its meant to be then it will happen , set them free yea ?
You know you'll not be happy to see your loved ones happy without you,
yet you'll have to force yourself to be, pretending you are .. cause this is , reality , Often, higher expectations lead to higher disappointments ..

Geralds burfdae party @ b0ttle tree parkkkk tmr nighty !
feel damn 0ff luhs , kn0wing n0ne there .
but 0h well , i pr0mised t0 keep his little gurlfren c0mpany ;)
h0pe i'll have the righht m0od w0rhh ! 0r she'll g0 m0oody with me . ahha
went t0 buy choco after co , dang , tasted likkk rock , disgusted by it .
N0 m0od f0r ch0c0lates t0day alr ~ YUCKKK

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thanks for the nice memories left behind .
hahah , though short , but its long enough to allow me to learn many things .
YOU CANT FIX A FEELING ...
all the best to you , move on in life and rmbr im still loving you .
不必让你伤心却刺痛自己 hahah .. hopefully 有缘再见 bahh ..
haha .. goodluck ._.

Alot happen recently .. suppose to ba happy , but turn out the opposite .
yuppp, all by the same person . heh . maybe its a wrong decision .
after 1 month , i believe it'll end . im praying it wont ,
but with the condition now , nahh , impossible that it wont end .
a 3 year is definitely worth more than my <1 month ...
ha , i told myself , gotta treasure the time now ,
must have trust ah . cause a relationship without no TRUST is
like a car without Fuel . You can stay in it all you want ,
but it won't go ANYWHERE ANYPLACE ANYELSE ..
and that it'll end with no regrets ..

haha cute rite ? ;)
told myself that i must smile lik a child as if theres nth going on ..

haha , officially stucking at home . ha . wanna go outt !
haish . holidays are coming and we gotta go back to sch lik everyday -_-
SYF coming , cant wait for it to be overrr , no more trainings of 1 whole week ,
blahblahblah ... hope our efforts wont paid off ..
worse is that O's are getting nearer and nearer ! myy tian ;'(
damn stress up with the sch , ha , our AWESOME principal .
3 simple offense in a row can turn to a big fuss ..

mum not going japan alr .. Zzzzz
cause of the earthquake + tsunami .
aunt got affected , she's stuck at home doing nth . no job .

freaking tired , gonnna nap ? eat ? hahah IDK !
hahhaha ok , tada !