I welcomed 2014 with a thought it’ll turn for the better after my life turned for the worse in late 2013. But 2k14 hasn’t been good at all. In fact, I pretty much couldn't rmbr any significant part of the year that’s worth reminiscing. Flipping through the past 12 chapters, I sighed. I’ve wasted another year forcing all my plans, decisions, choices, to a pause due to one major obstruction. An obstruction I wish to get rid of but dk how. An obstruction that everybody thought we owed our lives to & have to be grateful. But I think otherwise. Yes, this obstruction brought me to earth, I owe my thanks. Yes, I’m a Buddhist I believe in karma & I believe other religions do have too, in one term or another. Maybe sinful karma got it’s retribution to me this life. But I think there’s always a reason we’re given a second chance to live life. & by that it means to live the fullest not bein’ tortured & let misery or fear consumed us. This year went by fast enough. & throughout these 365 pages I lived by everyday looking forward to the end of each day in wait for a new fresh start the next day telling myself “It’s ok, tmr will be better”. On repeat everyday. Thankful I (barely) survived the year.
Through all the bad, positive happy vibes could still be found at times.
I’ve made lots of new friends, of which I lose quite a number too. Some of which I hold dearly to the remains on the good side of the friendship. I saw how mean & ugly a person’s character can turn to. & how one not to judge a book by it’s cover, how the closest person you thought could be your biggest enemy, how one show their true colors over a span of time. On a bright side I’m glad I managed to catch up with a few friends that I’ve not met for ages. One of the few gold moments that kept me surviving . Love category wise have got no items added in yet. Maybe two or three miscellaneous ones (eyecandies) HAHA.
Family line is horrible. I’ve been trying to think of another word besides family that I could use cause typing out this word itself is eew enough needless to say I’ve to say out “Oh, I’ve a family that I love”(YUCK) but yet to come up with yet. Suggestions anybody?
Thankful for all those that still stick through me after everything , helping me out in one way or another . Thank You .
Not forgetting you Finn , the one person I'm really really grateful for . (As for the reply to the previous previous post you did , I shall give a response in another time haha .)
With a heavy heart & mixed emotion , I bid 2k14 goodbye forever .
