Hehh , Whyy are there s0 manyyy IFs in 0ur lifes !? If this If that IF only all can c0me truee ..


IF only i c0uld turn back time ,
only t0 find myself afraid that if i d0 s0 , the g0od mem0ries will dissappear ..
IF 0nly i was n0t b0rn , s0 i w0nt have t0 suffer .
IF only i was b0rn earlier
IF 0nly i was b0rn later
IF only i have a time machine , s0 i can rewind time to the g00d times
IF only i can erase everything from my brain , but afraid that
IF i d0 s0 , all the fun awes0me mem0ries will be erase as well
IF only i have the c0urage , t0 pass y0u that letter
IF only i kn0wn y0u earlier
IF 0nly I am a g0o d gurl last time , then mum w0nt be dissap0inte in me .
IF 0nly i had n0t mix the wr0ng fren and d0ne that tat0o
IF 0nly i had studied hard f0r PSLE and g0es t0 a g0od sch0ol ,
but i'll miss the chance 0f getting t0 kn0w the AWESOME frens i kn0w n0w ..
IF 0nly i c0uld stay in TAIWAN , in a t0tal diff surr0undings ,
meeting t0tal new frens , have a T0tal new life
IF 0nly my mum all0wed me t0 c0ntinue w0rking ,
i w0nt have t0 quitt and missing the awesome peeps there
IF 0nly i HAVE a elder sis , one that i can talk t0 everynight ,
share my secrets , to l0ok to , to solve my pr0blems ,
IF only my y0unger sis became my elder 0ne
IF only i stopped daydreaming
IF only i can figure out what im thinkking
IF only my brudder could be m0re sensible ,
IF only i could grow up faster ,
IF only i could go back to 2010
IF only i could be back t0 being a baby , innocent and sweet ,
free 0f worries , waiting f0r ppl t0 care f0r them , l0ved them ..
IF only sweet dreams can turn to reality ,
IF only i had an awesome childhood ,
IF only i had n0t came t0 singap0re ,
then im sure t0 regret i missed out all the awesome ppl i've met .
IF only i c0uld be smarter , n0t w0rrying b0ut studies
IF only my life was PERFECT
IF only i could eat and eat all day , not worrying of getting FAT
IF only im really lik a glutton , angry sad happy w/e also EAT EAT EAT
IF only my mum wont be so strictttt , there many things i c0uld d0 ,
IF 0nly i've n0t met y0u , fall in ♥ with y0u ,
my heart w0nt be aching s0 badly , w0nt be weeping silently ,
i w0nt have t0 pretend t0 put up a fake smile 0n my face ,
i c0uld relly be myself and LOL
IF only i could be a bird , flying in the sky freely !
with no worries at all , roaming ar0und
IF 0nly s0me0ne can tell me what shld i d0 n0w ...
IF 0nly s0me0ne can tell me ami i really that bad ... ?
IF only i can be m0re decisive
IF only i can be m0re evil , and n0t s0 s0ft-hearted
IF only i can be str0nger , i w0nt be in the state i am in n0w
IF 0nly the w0rld is F R E E 0f disasters ,
japan w0nt have earthquakes , aunt will be finee
IF only 11 is really n0t such a bad number ...
IF only i c an have total FREEDOM
IF only i really can be likk no.6 , have special powers
IF only i have a cute partner lik doraemon ,
supplying everything i need anytime
IF only i could make my choices rightt
IF only god could relly stop all disasters from happening ,
then people out there wont have to sufferr
IF only i could live in my own worlddd ..

URGHHHH . i give up lik wtf .
Pekcek Pekcek .
parents making a big fuss , tsk .
it's just my thumb losing its senses lahhh
fine , if it wont hewal tmr , i go see d0ctor ahhh .
and s0rry f0r th0se wh0 get irritated by my sucking tweets this few days .
heh deleted them alr ..
and da-sao , sto0pp askingg what's happening t0 me . haish ,
saw y0ur tweet b0ut y0ur m-t-p dinneer , walao , lik a sweeet 0nly .
envy can , if 0nly i have that chance . LOL , kiddinggg ah .
the l0ss 0f bl0oood can make me die any moment now and yet
I'm still smiling as brightly as ever , lik a inn0cent baby , all pure
its just so c0ntradicting huh !
telling myself
I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling
I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling I'm smiling .. yeah lies .. Zzzzz
Trust me , i know what it's like to lock yourself up in the toilet to cry it all out ,
yeahhh , and it just breaks y0ur heart when
people you know , become people you knew ;
especiallyy when you can walk right past someone as if they were never
a H U G E part of your life
you used to be able to talk f0r h0urs on the phone and
now you cant even look each other in the damn eye man ..
it completely breaks your heart to know good things change and fades ,
faster then you'd imagined andd WORSE , theres nothing that you can do to stop it .

Eeesh g0tta ST0p all dha crapps !
second day of my 0h-so-cca-holiday , same routine ,
wake up , eat , cca , home , eat , hw , sleep .
a busy holiday , all rather hooked-up wan .
sth good , i need the loooong break , numb myself with tuff ,
make myself busy so i wont have time to daydream and think bout stuff again ..
still I never knew it would be this hard to lose someone I never truly had ,
oh well , fine . how long do i need this time r0und ?
it'll be looong . told myself dont ever find love again ,
the price to pay after is too high , i caant take it ...
let love find you , thats why its called falling in love
because you dont force yourself to fall , you just fall
never push your relationship with a person too hard,
if its meant to be then it will happen , set them free yea ?
You know you'll not be happy to see your loved ones happy without you,
yet you'll have to force yourself to be, pretending you are .. cause this is , reality , Often, higher expectations lead to higher disappointments ..

Geralds burfdae party @ b0ttle tree parkkkk tmr nighty !
feel damn 0ff luhs , kn0wing n0ne there .
but 0h well , i pr0mised t0 keep his little gurlfren c0mpany ;)
h0pe i'll have the righht m0od w0rhh ! 0r she'll g0 m0oody with me . ahha
went t0 buy choco after co , dang , tasted likkk rock , disgusted by it .
N0 m0od f0r ch0c0lates t0day alr ~ YUCKKK